#momofboys

  Being the eldest daughter in a family of three girls, I knew nothing about boys. The majority of my cousins are girls too... I had NO real concept of men in their element. When my daughter was born, I knew how to be her mom. I had the girl thing down. I was an … Continue reading #momofboys

Faith {in the wake}

In the quietest hours, while everything is still dark, while the household and neighborhood sleeps… questions come to life.  Impossible questions.  Gut-wrenching questions.  The questions that no one wants to ask, but everyone wonders about… questions the world throws at the church ... and the church hides from. The questions I used to hide from… … Continue reading Faith {in the wake}

What I wish People Understood: God broke trust with me, and only God can fix it.

I remember when your miracle came to life, when we all celebrated God’s faithfulness and power.  I sat in the audience watching, as you prayed for their miracle, and God moved through you.  I was so full of faith, and with you, I was passionate about everyone experiencing what we shared together - God of … Continue reading What I wish People Understood: God broke trust with me, and only God can fix it.

Identify Me

I don't measure up.                                         I don't fit in. I'm too much.                                                   … Continue reading Identify Me

Knowning

When this pain hit, I knew You, Abba God.  A Father, closer to me that my own skin.  But, You let me down.  Where were you in her suffering?  Where were you in her time of need?  Why couldn’t I see You?  Why couldn’t I feel You?  I still can’t… not like I used to.  Even … Continue reading Knowning

Known

Isaiah 45:5-6  "I am the Lord; there is no other God.  I have equipped you for battle, though you don't even know me, so all the world from the east to the west will know there is no other God.  I am the Lord, and there is no other." Psalm 100:3  "Know that the Lord … Continue reading Known

What I wish people understood: This is not something I’ll just get over

I lived with these people in my life for over 20 years.  One of them was a stabilizing presence my whole life... until now.  I won’t get over their deaths in a matter of months, probably not even in a matter of years.  I don’t know that I even want to get over loosing them. I … Continue reading What I wish people understood: This is not something I’ll just get over