Faith Shattered

“Faith unchecked becomes entitlement…” ~Bill Johnson (Faith Vs Entitlement) This concept has been rocking my world lately. I've lived in the knowledge of God my whole life.  And somewhere between the first moment when that tiny seed of faith in me was activated; that first thrill of discovering God is real, and now... I have … Continue reading Faith Shattered

Grandpa

I woke up today, just before my alarm… a challenging situation with one of my children on my heart.  I pushed snooze and took in a deep breath… silently pleading for answers as I rolled over… not wanting to leave the warm comforter.    It was then I saw you… in my mind, behind my … Continue reading Grandpa

Trusting

You took so long, patiently and painstakingly, to build my trust in You.  Over the years, from my earliest childhood days until now, You’ve never once asked me to prove myself or to earn anything from You.  Instead, You have stood still as I’ve inched closer… drawn in by the zingy sent of salt… curious… … Continue reading Trusting

Trust

Hebrews 6:10  "For God is not unjust.  He will not forget how hard you have worked for Him and how you have shown your love to Him by caring for other believers, as you still do." Psalm 86:3-4  "Have mercy on me, Lord, for I call to you all day long. Bring joy to your … Continue reading Trust

What I wish people Understood: I can’t praise away sorrow, and I don’t want to.

I won’t always cry.  But sometimes, sadness and loneliness just need to be felt.  They are the truest expressions of faith in God’s ability to meet me where I’m at. Disappointment, regret, loss… these things can’t simply be prayed away, cast out or replaced with praises and singing.  They are real life companions for anyone … Continue reading What I wish people Understood: I can’t praise away sorrow, and I don’t want to.

Identify Me

I don't measure up.                                         I don't fit in. I'm too much.                                                   … Continue reading Identify Me

Knowning

When this pain hit, I knew You, Abba God.  A Father, closer to me that my own skin.  But, You let me down.  Where were you in her suffering?  Where were you in her time of need?  Why couldn’t I see You?  Why couldn’t I feel You?  I still can’t… not like I used to.  Even … Continue reading Knowning