Faith Shattered

“Faith unchecked becomes entitlement…” ~Bill Johnson (Faith Vs Entitlement) This concept has been rocking my world lately. I've lived in the knowledge of God my whole life.  And somewhere between the first moment when that tiny seed of faith in me was activated; that first thrill of discovering God is real, and now... I have … Continue reading Faith Shattered

Faith {in the wake}

In the quietest hours, while everything is still dark, while the household and neighborhood sleeps… questions come to life.  Impossible questions.  Gut-wrenching questions.  The questions that no one wants to ask, but everyone wonders about… questions the world throws at the church ... and the church hides from. The questions I used to hide from… … Continue reading Faith {in the wake}

Trusting

You took so long, patiently and painstakingly, to build my trust in You.  Over the years, from my earliest childhood days until now, You’ve never once asked me to prove myself or to earn anything from You.  Instead, You have stood still as I’ve inched closer… drawn in by the zingy sent of salt… curious… … Continue reading Trusting

Trust

Hebrews 6:10  "For God is not unjust.  He will not forget how hard you have worked for Him and how you have shown your love to Him by caring for other believers, as you still do." Psalm 86:3-4  "Have mercy on me, Lord, for I call to you all day long. Bring joy to your … Continue reading Trust

What I wish people Understood: I can’t praise away sorrow, and I don’t want to.

I won’t always cry.  But sometimes, sadness and loneliness just need to be felt.  They are the truest expressions of faith in God’s ability to meet me where I’m at. Disappointment, regret, loss… these things can’t simply be prayed away, cast out or replaced with praises and singing.  They are real life companions for anyone … Continue reading What I wish people Understood: I can’t praise away sorrow, and I don’t want to.

What I wish People Understood: God broke trust with me, and only God can fix it.

I remember when your miracle came to life, when we all celebrated God’s faithfulness and power.  I sat in the audience watching, as you prayed for their miracle, and God moved through you.  I was so full of faith, and with you, I was passionate about everyone experiencing what we shared together - God of … Continue reading What I wish People Understood: God broke trust with me, and only God can fix it.

Knowning

When this pain hit, I knew You, Abba God.  A Father, closer to me that my own skin.  But, You let me down.  Where were you in her suffering?  Where were you in her time of need?  Why couldn’t I see You?  Why couldn’t I feel You?  I still can’t… not like I used to.  Even … Continue reading Knowning