When this pain hit, I knew You, Abba God.  A Father, closer to me that my own skin.  But, You let me down.  Where were you in her suffering?  Where were you in her time of need?  Why couldn’t I see You?  Why couldn’t I feel You?  I still can’t… not like I used to.  Even... Continue Reading →

Tragedy & God

How does tragedy fit into the theme of a loving God? I have no idea I know a churchy answer... but if I were to answer those who have lost loved ones to acts of cruelty or carelessness, or to bad luck or bad genes,  my churchiness would not be appreciated.  In fact those answers might... Continue Reading →

Legacy of Risk: Grandpa

Just a couple weeks before my grandpa passed away we got to have a really good and insightful conversation. "Linds, I'm not a risk taking kinda guy, but if you can take a good risk, do it." He told us about the different decisions he made throughout his life.  His decision to purchase properties on... Continue Reading →

Grandpa Praying

One of my favorite childhood memories is waking up in my grandparents house to the smell of coffee and toast, clean sheets and the lingering sent of grandma's soap and lotion, and grandpa's aftershave. I was upstairs, usually in the blue room with two twin beds,  windows that opened up over the street below, a... Continue Reading →

Grandpa,I Love You

I lost my Grandpa this week.  It was a surreal experience to walk through.  Waiting for a loved one to die.  Watching him breath slower and slower, longer pauses between breaths, each breath a fete for his tried body. We are fortunate. We had time.  Time to say goodbye.  Time to read to him, to... Continue Reading →

Legacy in a Ring

I sat on the bed, the heat of a November spring pressing in close, barely moved by the fan twirling above me.  It wasn't her bed, but it was her bedroom for the last months of her life.  The months I was last here, in Gympe.  When I last sat on the end of her... Continue Reading →

Finding Words

So, I have stated that I am starting to write again.  And I am. I just didn't realize how challenging it would be to find something in my writing that I feel courageous enough to publish in a blog. My heart is tender right now.  Grief is a strange companion... an awful guest.  Unpredictable, uncooperative,... Continue Reading →

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